The worry and stress of others can sometimes ignite my anxious feelings. While I know my loved ones have good intentions with their concern for me, sometimes their concern feeds my anxiousness and sparks self doubt.
Recently I had a meeting in downtown Dallas for The Honest Consumer. While I was not concerned about my meeting, one of my loved ones was. She knows that driving can be stressful for me. So the day before my meeting she was prompting me with questions...
Do you know where you're going? Do you know how to get there? Do you have cash to park? Do you want to find the building a day in advance, so you know how to find it?
While I had been having an anxiety free day, these questions were a little heavy. It made me feel like I was not capable of being independent and I should be worried about the situation. I know she just wants the best for me, but sometimes being able to just go is a good thing for me. If the situation is right, and it's a good day for me, being able to just go and not have to think about a situation is a golden opportunity to conquer my anxiety.
The morning of my meeting I plugged the address into my phone and drove downtown fearlessly without any preparation. After driving downtown I parked without a problem, got out of the car, and walked around. As I was walking around downtown I felt a sense of freedom. Sure, I'd been downtown plenty of times, but never just by myself. As I walked around I felt as though I could conquer the world. The restlessness of the city brought me peace. Thoughts that, I CAN do this, ran through my mind. In that moment I felt light and free. My anxiety is a part of me, but does not define me. I am capable and my feelings are valid.