Know & Love Your Messy, Beautiful Self

Getting to the point where you are comfortable with who you are can be an intimidating journey. It's overwhelming how much this amazing community has embraced my honesty about life. I'm baffled by the amount of people who find me relatable because sometimes I feel like I'm the only one struggling to get it together.

Social media can lead us to some false perceptions about happiness. I believe it is important to step away and discover who YOU are. It's easy to get caught up in the constant connection and compare ourselves to others. I know I am guilty. I overwhelm myself and look at bloggers with huge followings, who travel, and have these picture perfect lives and that's not who I am. But sometimes knowing who you are can begin with finding out who you are not. 

struggling with anxiety & mental health

I'm not the girl that spends hours on her make up every morning. I'm not the girl that eats peas. I'm not the scholar who gets straight As. I'm not the blogger who does her hair before shooting a product. I'm not the girl who goes out and parties. I'm not the girl who follows all the trends. 

I'm the girl who wakes up twenty minutes before a meeting or class, throws on a bra, deodorant, brushes her teeth, and runs out the door. I'm the girl with a mind running at 1,000 miles an hour in five different directions. I literally have a sign in my living room that says, "Welcome to the Shit Show" because I'm all over the place, all the time. I'm the girl who wants to make a positive impact. I'm the girl who needs her alone time. I'm the crazy lady in the store flipping shirts up and down, trying to figure out where they're made. I'm the girl who gets hangry. I'm the girl who swears like a sailor. I'm the girl who works multiple jobs to keep herself afloat. I'm the girl with a desk so messy I can't work at it.

I'm also the girl with anxiety, the girl who occasionally worries about her weight, and the girl who has acne. I have flaws and insecurities and that's okay. My life is messy and that is okay. I'm comfortable with who I am because I know that "those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter." Learning to love yourself is a process that begins with knowing who you really are!

The way this community has embraced my honesty and insecurity is amazing to me. I'm thankful every single day. I hope that my honesty and this accepting community can encourage others to discover who they truly are and embrace it because life it short and it is so important to love yourself.